Yeah… so, no words or pictures today. Ok, no pictures, a few words. This is a trend… and there are reasons. I just don’t want to write them. You know? There is just only so much of my medical life I want to face right now–blogging it seems really, uh, to defeat that purpose. If I write it, I have to face it. Blech.
That being said, please don’t worry and leave urgent comments. It’s not urgent. It’s not anything, but part of my life and I don’t find it inspiring at the moment.
I will say this… our car was broken into a few weeks past and the losers took my music and left most of IZ’s. Heh. So, IZ bought me a few new CDs. This is a big deal around here. I’ll spend money on flowers without a thought, but new music feels like such a luxury. So, my list of music I want is HUGE…
Anyhow, Prince Charming lived up to his name and he even let me pick out the new music and didn’t mock me or chastise me for the language. For my part, I skipped the Lily Allen and Amy Winehouse, (and Franz Ferdinand and the Killers!!) and got a few releases I thought IZ might be willing to listen to with me because some of his music was stolen too.
I would like to note that I’ve taught Boy Wonder to use the first line of “Rehab”… he now runs around saying “She tried to make me clean my room, but I said ‘No, No, No.'” Heh. He won’t sing it, because he says, “I don’t sing, MOM!” in that tone of voice that just dares me to correct him. I refuse. I’m a lover not a fighter.
And so, in the midst of no words and no ambition and no real reason to complain, really, I’m listening to the incomparable Regina Spektor. If you’ve not heard of her, go take a listen to Fidelity. (The CD is “Begin to Hope”, in case you’re wondering!) Your cool quotient is going up just reading this… and I have to say, Fidelity may be the worst song on the CD! It’s just that stunning.
This is how it works
You’re young until you’re not
You love until you don’t
You try until you can’t
You laugh until you cry
You cry until you laugh
And everyone must breathe
Until their dying breath
No, this is how it works
You peer inside yourself
You take the things you like
And try to love the things you took
And then you take that love you made
And stick it into some
Someone else’s heart
Pumping someone else’s blood
And walking arm in arm
You hope it don’t get harmed
But even if it does
You’ll just do it all again ~~RS
And this is how it works. Sometimes words, sometimes pictures. And sometimes, nothing but music.
Wende, what did I miss? What’s going on? Another friend having surgery? Is that the trend. Sigh.
I’m having trouble with words, too. Just not feeling it.
Hope all is okay. I finally set up google reader and cleaned up old links and links that never made it on my neglected bloglines. I put you on.
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I’m sad that you’re not going to be in Seattle. S i g h! But I totally get it! I think you’re uber cool for even trying! 😀 And… NO STRESSING over my health, it’s not permitted or allowed or encouraged or. . . . ~W
Oh, maybe the issue with the medications? Is that it? Hope it gets all sorted out.
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Seriously, it’s all good. Or, it will be! ~W
And this is how it works… I love you. Happy to keep you in music!
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I love you more. Heh… ok, that’s not possible, I think. ~W
Am I wrong to be amused by the fact that IZ’s music isn’t rip-off worthy? Because if I am … I don’t want to be right. That was the best part of the post! (Sorry IZ).
Today I will sing (in my head) this song for you: “Twenty-twenty-twenty-four hours to go … I wanna be sedated. Nothin’ to do, nowhere to go, I wanna be sedated.”
Because that’s how thoughtful and considerate I am.
You’re welcome. 😀
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hurry, hurry, hurry before I go insane; i can’t control my fingers I can’t control my brain. :D How much do you love the Ramones?? And thank you. This helps, it does. It’s like a lovely punk rock prayer. 😀 ~W
Will hop over to iTunes as soon as I leave here to check out Fidelity.. I’m certain I have very little music you want but I will burn you a CD all the same, laced with Tom Waits, Iron and Wine, perhaps a little NOMO.
I am still disturbed your meds got messed with, esp. without your knowledge- that’s basically unethical and more, it takes away your sense of control over things- and that is already minimized when our bodies go haywire on us.
That reminds me: the other evening Rich and I were surfing on television for something- anything- fit to watch. He fell on a little blip of Steve Martin gone serious and I said, “Oh, I know that movie! I haven’t seen it but I read the book! It’s The Shop Girl!” The movie, with Martin and Claire Dane, was as utterly chraming as his original novella and there’s a scene in the movie where she decides to discontinue some medication and the result that is probably about the best ten minutes of film making I’m ever seen. So, consider renting The Shop Girl or catching it on HBO or something. Maybe I can get that on DVD for you, too.
I think being at a loss for, or reluctance for words is a-okay, Just keep on keepin’ on.
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A sense of control is a delusion I’m forced to give up every time I face a doctor. I know this in my head, but my heart rebels. I’ll send you email. It’s nothing to worry about. It’s just my life and despite all the lovely words and pictures, this is the dark side. I choose not to focus on it. But that being said, my unwillingness to give it much air time on my blog does not negate its ability to wreck havoc in my real life from time to time. Joy joy. 😀 ~W
Okay. I won’t worry, if you say so. You’re the boss. I think you already told me to check out Regina Spektor — I will do so today. I have promised the entire world to sit on my ass today and REST, which is apparently almost impossible for me to achieve. So, music will be a welcome distraction.
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Resting is good. Necessary. And worry gets us nowhere. It doesn’t fix things or speed them along or in any way enhance our living conditions. And this much I know, it only makes matters worse. So, be informed… but worried…yeah, why bother. 😀 ~W
I clicked on “Fidelity” and Miss Maddie came running in, singing along, already knowing the words??!! Conversely, my hip quotient has nowhere to go but up, so thank you.
Vicki and I continue to be kindred spirits. I liked Shopgirl, too, and I’ve used parts of the soundtrack (Vietnamese composer – Barrington Pheloung) for teaching restorative yoga. I’m quite certain you would enjoy a restorative class (the use of props – blocks, straps, blankets – to get you into poses of deep, blissful relaxation) just now. Miz S and Vicki, too!
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I’m just looking forward to watching you and Vicki talk in a few weeks. 😀 And Shop Girl is an amazing movie. I adore Claire Danes as an actress and I think her work in that movie is just so subtle and lovely. I still don’t know how I feel about the casting of Steve Martin. ~W
My cool quotient is not very high, so I’ll have to go listen also. I understand about the health and how hard you try to get past it, and not let it bring you down. Still, some days(weeks) are harder than others; we’re human and have those bitter moments. I know I do about various things.
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They are, Margaret! Thanks for being so present through all this. I appreciate your ears, I do, I do! ~W
Sending you thoughts of peace and serenity. I hope that life looks brighter for you very soon.
In reading the type of music you like, I was wondering if you had ever heard Bat For Lashes…she is wonderful! Here’s a link where you can hear some of her songs, http://www.batforlashes.co.uk/audio/
Hope you enjoy 🙂
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Thanks, Michele! I love new music tips! I’ll go check this darling out soon… thanks. 😀 ~W
Thanks for the music…I got lost in Regina Spektor land…how fun it was.
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She’s amazing, eh? ~W
You, my dear, have awesome taste in music! I’m curious, though, what does IZ listen to???
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He listens to Jazz and I can’t stand it! ~W
I just trust this means you’re resting.
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More like running around like a chicken with her head cut off!! I’m trying to send email, but my email server is having issues… as soon as it clears, I’ll send out my missive. 😀 ~W
Let’s just say I have more sophisticated taste than the common teen. I prefer jazz and classical. Yo Yo Ma playing a latin tango is good stuff!
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No it’s not. 😀 ~W
I so want to buy Regina Spektor now! Thanks for passing this along. I love the lyrics and the quality of her voice. IZ- jazz? Really? Hmm…
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You should, her music is amazing! ~W
IZ and I couldn’t agree more regarding Yo-Yo Ma and the tango!!
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oof!
See – and you haven’t heard John Williams until you listen to his Guitar Recital. But if you want some really cool guitar – check out Rodrigo Y Gabriela…
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funny how that cd wasn’t taken. heh. ~W
regina spektor rocks 🙂
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ITA! ~W