I walked away from my computer this Friday and Saturday—well, my blog actually—because after the week I had the thought of it made my head ache. The details aren’t worth the words required. I will say this: sometimes the Internet feels like High School.
There’s a reason I dropped out of High School.
Last week found me in the middle of nonsense not of my making. You know it’s bad when you find that pouring yourself tea in perpetuity and singing emo lyrics can’t abate the growing knot in your stomach.
Hey, you know they’re all the same
You know you’re doing better on your own (on your own)
So don’t buy in.
Live right now
Yeah, just be yourself.
It doesn’t matter if it’s good enough
For someone else.
Yeah, that Jimmy Eat World rocks.
Sadly, some people graduate from High School in name only! There are moments when the cattiness and the clique mentality makes my head spin and I start questioning why I bother.
But the truth is, despite last week, good prevails on the Internet. For every ass out there with a blog there are 10 of you worth reading. So many more of you are choosing to make a difference. In my life and in the lives of others.
So, I took a bit of time to breathe. To get some space. To hang out with real people in real time and drink real wine.
And it helped.
Then Good prevailed again. Because it does… it cannot be held back by the bitter hearts of last week. I woke up Sunday morning to discover that Bug, in her witty way had done a lovely, lovely write up about Boy Wonder and his Bag Bag. When I asked her to mention his little venture to her readers I had NO idea. No idea whatsoever that she would come through so beautifully and with such care. I mean it, Bug, you rocked my Sunday and you made everything OK again.
Here’s the thing… sometimes, you have to walk away to gain perspective. Sometimes, you have to open a bottle of cheap wine and laugh yourself into a reality check. And sometimes, you have to sing emo lyrics until the Universe notices your lament and responds.
Consider it a kind of worship.
It just takes some time
Little girl you’re in the middle of the ride
Everything, everything will be just fine
Everything, everything will be alright
Is that my nail polish? I wondered where I put it. Everyone needs a break and everyone needs alcohol. However, I feel it my duty to point out that wine will cause the nastiest headaches (not necessarily hangovers) known to mankind. Glad you’re back for the rest of the ride 😀
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Why, yes, it is your nail polish. I’m like a theiving younger sister in this regard. :D And, OOF on the wine. :D~W
Sometimes people are just a pain in the “culo” as my Italian mother would say. I teach in a high school, but see nearly as much drama among adults as I do there. Sad, isn’t it? I have moved light years beyond any patience with such nonsense. So, I understand your frustration. Booze does help, and time with friends and family.
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There are days, you know? Last week was a string of them. I’ve over it, though. I am kinda surprised you didn’t jump on that little tidbit where I admit to dropping out of high school. 😉 ~W
Love that chocolate brown nail polish! Don’t let those Bitter Betty’s rent anymore space in your head. You, my friend, are a wonderful, delightful person and they can all just go to h-e-double hocky sticks! Hey, and that cheap wine was the best!!
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Thank you, Paula! That means so much. The wine was great, we should do that again soon! 😀 ~W
You just had to say you’re younger than I am, didn’t you? LOL Okay, as the nail-polish-deprived “older” psuedo-sister, I will personally yell at/beat up anyone who is being mean to you. But not before I have a drunk. Um, drink. Just one.
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Heh… I appreciate your “familial” loyalty… even if it does involve me getting you liquored up! ~WÂ
LOVE the nail color! Now I have to convince The Hotness to let me go to the beauty section “just one more time” this week *chuckle*
“High school minded” people do blow goats, I deal with them on a daily basis and boy howdy it’s a true test of patience and kindness each moment of the day.
LOVE the song lyrics, that tune is one of my faves 🙂
And I’m glad to be of any help I can, nothing brings my heart more joy than seeing a kid wanting to make a difference in their lives and the lives of others (it’s pretty rare these days so be proud mom) 😉
Hope this week is oodles better for ya! *hugs*
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Thank you, sweetie. On so many fronts, thank you! ~W
Paint it black, babe, paint it black… but not out of some Rolling Stone form of mourning – but because black is the new spring color, don’t you know. In fact, in Japanese culture, kuro (black) is a symbol of nobility, age, and experience. And don’t forget that in G’s TKD, black is the highest belt you can earn. I would say you’ve earned yours. You’ve had enough “experience” with negative netizens to fashion a new you around a more positive group… way to go. Great color. It rocks!
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It does rock! And so do you. It’s a beast to keep up, though. Like I need another obsessive habit. 😀 ~W
Hey there, I dropped by your blogger blog, and got redirected here from your post. Congrats on getting a new domain! It’s one of my ultimate goals in life, to own a domain (I know its silly, but hey… aren’t most of our goals like that?). I’m just too lazy to work on it though.
“sometimes, you have to sing emo lyrics until the Universe notices”, LOL! Yeah… but thats so silly and attention seeking. Atleast that is what I feel about emo songs.
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Howdy, Slim! I did a double take, because I just registered a new domain today and I was stumped how you knew about it since it was only “official” an hour or so ago. Then it dawned on me what you were talking about the evidently domain. I’ve been off blogger for years and THANK GOD, there’s nothing like it. When you do it, go WordPress, you won’t regret it! And… if you can’t whine to music, what’s the point of whining? I have it on good authority that God likes Emo. And Grunge. And Ska. She hates Country. Just sayin’. 😀 ~W
Ohhh… I didn’t notice the date in your blogger blog post that redirects here! My bad 😛 Thought I was some kind of psychic for a moment, didn’t ya? LOL!
Yeah. blogger can be a bitch at times (okay, most times) but its good to have a challenge and always keep fixing errors (I know, I’m weird like that). But yeah, I’ll be considering wordpress when I do decide its time to get a domain… less fuss and a lot of options. And, I’m more into metal… emo is just too silly for metalheads 😛 . And EVERYONE hates country LOL!
It’s easy to say, “shake it off… don’t let it bug ya… blah, blah, blah”, but it’s hard when one is good and faced with the not so good. A year from now whatcha gonna remember… a bad egg that stunk up your internet? Or will you remember drinking [delicious] cheap wine with friends who love and adore you? My guess is the latter!
I’d drink box wine out of a rusty coffee can if it meant being able to drink with you!
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I’m guessing I won’t remember anything in six months. 😀 And your “rusty coffee can” comment made me mist up. Seriously… that was really nice. Thank you! ~W